My Love/Hate Relationship with Food

My Love/Hate Relationship with Food

Can anyone else relate to this? Come on, I know it can't only be me.

Happens to me all the time :/ Especially when I'm home alone. It's probably because no one is around to judge, so there's nothing stopping you. Plus I love food. No, you don't get it. I looooove food. Especially sweet food, including my school cafeteria's cookies. Oh, those cookies. They're soft in the middle and a bit crispy/crunchy around the edges, and they're the perfect combination of chewiness, crispiness, and yumminess. Yes, yumminess. If it's not already a word, I just made it one. So there :P

ANYWAY back on topic. I usually end up cleaning out half the cupboard before my parents are home again, and then I'll end up feeling guilty because of all the freaking CALORIES.

Not because I'm on a diet, or that I think I'm fat or anything. I'm not overweight, though I could certainly lose some. I know too much food could get me overweight, and it's not like the food that I feel guilty about eating is healthy. Quite the opposite, really. And damn, I eat a lot of it.

This also happens a lot when I'm (not) doing homework. I'll be sitting at my desk with my pencil in my hand, ready to start my homework - and then I just don't. I'll be like: "Right after one brownie.." And then I'll go down the stairs (hey, at least it's exercise, right?), open the cupboard, take a brownie, and just before I close it the box of cookies will catch my eye, and I'll just be standing there having an internal debate in my head about whether or not to take a cookie too. Then with extraordinary force of will, I'll close the cupboard and walk back upstairs with my brownie. Once I've finished the brownie I'll be thinking "Ok, back to work now." So I'll write one sentence before getting distracted again by the thought of food, and I'll think to myself "How about that cookie now..."

And you get the idea.



P.S. Do you consider the word "damn" a swear word? I don't think it's a good word, but I don't think that it is a swear word either.

P.P.S. I just ate two brownies...